The Leap of Faith

I’ve spent the last couple of days going through an introspective review of how 2021 is going so far, and where else I want to go. A few friends and family have become aware of my ramblings and YouTube videos through social media, although I haven’t largely shared too much on my own personal channels. And why you may ask? One, simple, reason.

I’m scared

I know my words or videos aren’t got to hurt anyone (although I do worry what my work may say), but I can’t help but feel petrified of how people are going to judge me. I’m working my way through Austin Kleon’s books and am also about to start ‘You are a badass’ by Jen Sincero on a recommendation (keep an eye out for my thoughts in the future).

I suppose my fear is that people will judge me, or think I’m being silly for putting in some real time and effort to creating online content. It all boils down to one question that I know people will ask me (including myself); Why?

So, the below are my reasons why:

1. I love it, genuinely. I enjoy all aspects for the tasks I’m undertaking, reading, watching, learning, writing, filming & editing.
2. There is a drive inside me to be creative, to put my work out there that I (and hopefully those close to me) can be proud of.
3. I want to impart my knowledge. If one person finds a single video or article helpful, or provides some guidance in some way then I will be over the moon. Honestly.

Now, number 4 is a tough one. But I have to be honest with you all, as I promised myself I would.

4. I want to make a better life for me and my family.

Hear me out.

Points 1-3 are genuine, and I will continue to do this work as long as at least a couple of these continue. But, if there is some way that I can make this pastime of mine provide some kind of financial income, or provide new experiences and opportunities for me, then I am going to give it my all.

It’s difficult, because I am a firm believer that no one could make any business work if they are not passionate about it. I couldn’t be a good mechanic, because cars don’t do that much for me. But this does, and I’m willing to slog my guts out for this to work. And if it doesn’t work out, that’s also fine.

But… there is only way to find out.

So, this article is an open, honest commitment for all to see, that by 1st May 2021, I will start sharing all of my work on my personal channels, and will take my ‘leap of faith.’ This gives me a little under 4 weeks to get my site and videos in order. Now, I know it won’t be perfect, but by giving myself a bit of time I can build up to it and prepare. But this article will also hold me accountable, I have to do it now!

So, have you taken your leap of faith yet, and if not, why?